Jake has been in rehab for around 60days now. He has smoked weed, and two weeks ago went to a rave and popped E. I went to the parental group meeting last night - surrounded by a group of strangers and their kids and he announces that he jacked Meth again on Monday. I have no idea how I kept it together with my already fractured heart - I listened to their trite advice and then they asked me how I felt. I said 'excuse me' and left the room. There is still shame in male tears with strangers - I should know. I returned 10 minutes later, eyes stripped of all but pride, and sat and watched as the session continued with meaningless platitudes. Actually this is wrong - there is no pride left either. There wasn't before I entered the building even, but that is another story. I sit here typing this, sifting through the ashes of my life, not to induce sympathy but merely to inform. Outpatient rehab does not work. If your kid does this to you get him/her inpatient as soon as possible.